InsaneJournal

Current mood:	wistful
Current music:	"Whine up" - Kat DeLuna
Entry tags:	cats

Spring in my heart
I was astonished to find the birds chirping happily when I went into my room just a moment ago. My eldest cat - and the cat I've had for the longest EVER - Kiara is very close to giving birth to a litter of cute, cuddly, mewing things... and I find myself anticipating it with more joy than I have felt for the past weeks.

Sure I've been silly and cheerful... but joy... ah, that deep, intense feeling of happiness that builds up in your chest until you can't help but smile... that one has been sorely missed. Lately I've felt nothing but a black fist in my chest, a sensation I share with my mother, although for two very different reasons.

In any case, the joy isn't simply because of my expecting kitty, or the birds outside. My sweet, misshapen kitty, Koneko, daughter of Kiara, suddenly leapt unto the table all purring and insane like, a little while ago. She was headbutting my chin and purring like there's no tomorrow... and suddenly I felt so very grateful that we managed to keep her insane little butt alive. I'm so grateful to have her. I mean, I love Cho and Xelha a lot too... but Koneko is a bit different.

She partly fills the hole left by Kuroneko.

And he, in turn, filled the gaping wound that the loss of my Pikachu brought me. Yes, I know, not quite the appropriate name for a cat. But god did I love my Pika. And my Kuro. I miss my black boys so much, it aches inside.

:sighs wistfully: Nothing to be done about it, though.

But Goddess, how grateful I am of these little purring things that I have now. Life without Xelha, Koneko, Cho and Kiara would be unbearable. Please, goddess, help my Kiara in having a healthy litter soon. I'd give everything to enjoy watching kittens grow up again.