InsaneJournal

Current mood:

confused

Clouded messages
As I was walking home from the doctors' office (where I got a shot in my buttocks, ow ;-;), I was keeping a keen eye on the night sky. For some reason I felt like tonight was a night of decisions, or something like that. In any case, suddenly I noticed a cloud drifting over at quite a rapid pace. First it resembled a butterfly to me, which immediatly made me feel like it was a “message” for me. Ever since the notion of a “butterfly dream” came to me, I've felt a special affinity wih these pretty bugs. So anyway, as the cloud blew further, it started to change forms, until it was this special “rocking” image of two horse heads. About two years ago this lady made me a soul map, a drawing that is supposed to make some things clear about my soul. In it, the main bit of it, actually, are two horse heads opposite from eachother, linked together at the bottom with a thick curved line – like two horse heads “rocking”. Of course this made me look a bit more oddly, especially since the cloud changed even further to show a man and a woman dancing. Then I notice a series of other clouds following that one. Sort of like smoke signals, really. The first one that followed resembled a lobster. The next one was a bit more disturbing, it was like a very anguished face, but more like a ghost face than anything else. Like the spooky evil ghosts from “The Librarian 2”, with hollow eyes and a hollow mouth. It was a bit disturbing, I thought. Later it shifted into a kind of swan or duck. The last cloud seemed to me like a dolphin.

I try to see magic in everything – from lighting a candle to cooking a meal to watering flowers or caring for your pets. I don't do practical magic, I only know it in theory. I know how to do a love spell with candles, I can make an amulet for luck and fortune, I can make a healing voodoo doll, or whatever. I've just never done it before. Still, the everyday magic, to me, is equally important than the more “forced magics”. These clouds formations seemed to be sending a message, or so it seems to me, but I'm not sure what it is. I've been assembling a “how to summon ghosts” guide for one of my co-workers, so that might explain the ghostish face. The first cloud seems to indicate me, and perhaps the Native American influences in my soul (I have many, oddly enough – the horses are one of them), which could also be linked to how these “messages” approached me. The person I think of when I see a dolphin is my not-exactly stephbrother, but I wouldn't know who to link with the swan/duck. Same with the lobster.

I'm definetly overthinking this, but it's fun to do so. <3 Also, if there -is- a message there for me to discover, I definetly don't want to miss it.