Dreaming aloud
My internet has been down for about a week, now, and I feel like I've lost an arm. While being too exhausted to really enjoy the internet and my usual hang-outs, I miss my boyfriend and the regular chitchat.

In any case, I'm home from work right now, for the holidays. I've been working at an American farmaceutical company for the past four weeks now. It's been an interesting experience, to say the least. I've learned a lot of things about myself, at least. I've learned that I'm a very “black and white” person. Either I like someone, or I really don't. And I mean REALLY don't. Also, I've learned that I'm not very sociable nor that I feel comfortable easily. And I'm a lot more naive than I had thought myself to be. All of these realisations aren't exactly positive – they're not positive character traits, and I must admit that the naivity is the one I hate the most. It's wrong of me, but I hate people who are too naive. Quite a generalisation, I know, but what most people think as “cute”, I despise. X”D I'm weird like that.

My friend Jelle once told me that he wasn't “made” for working. I feel that neither am I. Either my co-workers and I are just too different in nature, believes and personalities (which is very possible), or I'm just not the working kind. I think that my shop is too much on my mind to really enjoy work. And the fact that I don't get along with my coworkers. But still... My shop, my book, and all the other things I wish to realize. I'd better get started, then!